ohne worte …

… geht es nicht. ich verliere dich Tag um Tag immer mehr er haltet deine Hand, gibt dir einen … und ich schau da zu. fuck, will nicht mehr …

bye honey

Schmerzen …

Wenn ich die Wahl habe zwischen dem Nichts und dem Schmerz, dann wähle ich den Schmerz.

(William Faulkner)

warum kannst du mich nicht einfach halten …

Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I’d choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I’d audition
And if I didn’t love you
You would know…

And why can’t you just hold me?
And how come it is so hard?
And do you like to see me broken?
And why do I still care?
still care ?

You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn’t matter
I wish I didn’t give you all

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I’d choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I’d audition
And if I didn’t love you
You would know…

And why can’t you just hold me?
And how come it is so hard?
And do you like to see me broken?
And why do I still care?

Poor little missunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can’t remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days

And Why ….
Why can’t you just hold me?
And how come it is so hard?
And do you like to see me broken?
And why do I still care?

(Maria Mena – Just hold me)

tränen …

Love, love is a verb
Love is a doing word
Fearless on my breath
Gentle impulsion
Shakes me makes me lighter
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Nine night of matter
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Water is my eye
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire of a confession
Fearless on my breath
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Stumbling a little
Stumbling a little

(Massive Attack – Teardrop)

bleeding love …

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
Oh you cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

(Leona Lewis – Bleeding love)

kein vertrauen …

I thought I saw a man brought to life
he was warm he came around
and he was dignified
he showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn’t be that man I adore
you don’t seem to know don’t seem to care
what your heart is for
but I don’t know him anymore

There’s nothing where you used to lie
the conversation has run dry
that’s what’s going on
nothing’s fine I’m torn

I’m all out of faith this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you’re a little late I’m already torn

So I guess the fortune teller’s right
I should have seen just what was there
and not some holy light
to crawl beneath my veins and now

I don’t care I have no luck
I don’t miss it all that much
there’s just so many things
that I can’t touch I’m torn

I’m all out of faith this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you’re a little late I’m already torn torn

There’s nothing where you used to lie
my inspiration has run dry
that’s what’s going on
nothing’s right I’m torn

I’m all out of faith this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

I’m all out of faith this is how I feel
I’m cold and I’m ashamed
bound and broken on the floor
you’re a little late I’m already torn torn

(Natalie Imbruglia – Torn)

rosegardens …

all the velvet rain
doesn’t kill my pain
listen to the splashing streetlights
taken me to my own shame
but variation … and hesitation wasn’t
my way … and reclamation
I did know that we were right
I will ever live again
will taste your lovely tears
wanna lay down by your side
within rosegardens
takin’ you tonight
it’s keeping me so bright
meltin’ up and down so slowly
like a dizzy holy light
and all my praying
and all my swayin’ round is my way
and finding you down
I’ll be with you
all around
I will ever live again
will taste your lovely tears
wanna lay down by your side
within gardens
there I kiss u slowly tight
and move my body right
we’re staying day and night
within rosegardens

(SheSays – Rosegardens)

come, break me down …

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn’t take this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I’m not running from you

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You’re killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally I found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You’re killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break…?

(30 seconds to mars – the kill)

in pieces …

Telling me to go
but hands beg me to stay
Your lips say that you love
your eyes say that you hate

There’s truth in your lies,
doubt in your faith
What you build you lay to waste
There’s truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
All I’ve gots what you didn’t take

So I…
I won’t be the one
Be the one to leave this, in pieces
And you…
You will be alone…
Alone with all your secrets, and regrets
Don’t lie

You promised me the sky
then toss me like a stone
You wrap me in your arms
and chill me to the bone

There’s truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
All I’ve got’ s what you didn’t take

So I…
I won’t be the one
Be the one to leave this, in pieces
And you…
You will be alone…
Alone with all your secrets, and regrets
Don’t lie

So I…
I won’t be the one
Be the one to leave this, in pieces
And you…
You will be alone…
Alone with all your secrets, and regrets
Don’t lie

(Linkin Park – In pieces)

Stolen …

We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grant farewells
Crash the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well (sleep well)

You have stolen
You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in your highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

(Dashboard Confessional feat. Juli – Stolen)

Du bist alles was ich will …

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That’s leading me
To the place
where I find peace again.

You are the strength,
that keeps me walking.
You are the hope,
that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose
You’re everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms,
and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands,
you won’t let me fall.
You steal my heart,
and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in?
Take me deeper now?

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you’re all I want,
You’re all I need
You’re everything,
everything

You’re all I want
you’re all I need
You’re everything,
everything.

You’re all I want
you’re all I need.
You’re everything, everything

You’re all I want
You’re all I need,
You’re everything,
everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

(Lifehouse – Everything)

ist doch nur ein Spiel …

Dass du nicht mehr bist
Was du einmal warst
Seit du dich für mich
ausgezogen hast

Dass du alles schmeißt
Wegen einer Nacht
Und alles verlierst
War so nicht gedacht

Du willst mich für dich
Und du willst mich ganz
Doch auf dem Niveau
Macht’s mir keinen Spaß

Das füllt mich nicht aus
Ich fühl mich zu Haus
Nur zwischen den Stühlen

Ich will doch nur spielen
Ich tu doch nichts
Ich will doch nur spielen
Ich tu doch nichts

Dass du wegen mir
irgendwen verläßt
Dass du manchmal weinst
Weil es dich verletzt

Dass es immer mal
jemand anderen gibt
Der sich hier und da
in mein Leben schiebt

Dass du dich verliebst
Weil du’s mit mir tust
Dass es dich so trifft
Hab ich nicht gewußt

Es war nie geplant
dass du dich jetzt fühlst
Wie einer von vielen

Ich will doch nur spielen
Ich tu doch nichts
Ich will doch nur spielen
Ich tu doch nichts

Dass du nicht mehr schläfst
Weil es dich erregt
wenn ich mich beweg’
Wie ich mich beweg’

Dass du fast verbrennst
unter meiner Hand
Wenn ich dich berühr
hab ich nicht geahnt

Ich steh nur so rum
tu so dies und das
Fahr mir durch das Haar
und schon willst du was

Lass mal lieber sein
Hab zuviel Respekt
vor deinen Gefühlen

Ich will doch nur spielen
Ich tu doch nichts
Ich will doch nur spielen
Ich tu doch nichts

(Annett Louisan – Das Spiel)

Crawling

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling, I can’t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I’m convinced
there’s just too much pressure to take
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It’s haunting how I can’t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence, I’m convinced
there’s just too much pressure to take
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure…

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
Confusing what is real
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling
Confusing what is real

(Linkin Park – Crawling)

Längst verloren …

Ich spiele Roulette mit meinem Herz
Ich setze auf Rot doch es kommt Schwarz
Ich steck mir tausend neue Ziele
Von denen ich niemals eins erreiche
Und alles tut nur weh
Als wär mein Leben aus Papier…

Ich hab dich längst verloren
In meinen Spiegelbild
Seh ich zuviel von dir jeden Tag
Ich hab dich längst verloren
In meinen Spiegelbild
Sind meine Augen nicht von mir
Denn jeder Tag gehört nur dir…

Seh all deine Fehler jetzt in mir
Was ich früher gehasst hab
Fehlt mir jetzt an dir
Räum deine Sachen in den Schrank
Nehm deine Bilder von der Wand
Streich dich aus meinen Leben
Als hätte ich dich nie gekannt

Ich hab dich längst verloren
In meinen Spiegelbild
Seh ich zuviel von dir jeden Tag
Ich hab dich längst verloren
In meinen Spiegelbild
Sind meine Augen nicht von mir
Denn jeder Tag gehört nur dir…

Hab unser Tagebuch zerissen
Und werde nichts davon vermissen
Hab’s weggeschmissen und verbrannt
Und jetzt fang ich von vorne an

Ich hab dich längst verloren
In meinen Spiegelbild
Seh ich zuviel von dir jeden Tag
Ich hab dich längst verloren
In meinen Spiegelbild
Sind meine Augen nicht von mir
Denn jeder Tag gehört nur dir…

(Revolverheld – Längst verloren)

Ich werde Dich Lieben

Ich werde Dich Lieben,
werd’ Dich lieben bis zum Tod.
Werd’ Dich lieben
bis ans Ende der Welt.
Die Menschen werden sich lieben,
vergessen und lieben,
doch ich werde Dich lieben bis zum Tod.

Ich werde Dich lieben,
Werd’ Dich lieben bis zum Tod.
Werd’ Dich lieben bis ans Ende der Welt.
Die Menschen werden sich lieben,
Vergessen und lieben,
Doch ich werde Dich lieben bis zum Tod

Meine Seele fliegt zu Dir dann,
Und sie fliegt Dir in Dein Herz,
Und Du wirst mich lieben,
Wenn Du auch nicht treu bist,
Doch Du wirst mich lieben bis zum Tod

Und ich werde Dich lieben,
Und ich werde Dich lieben,
Und ich werde Dich lieben bis zum Tod.
Die Menschen werden sich lieben
Und vergessen und lieben.
Doch ich werde Dich lieben noch im Tod.

Glaube glaube mir, Glaube mir
Glaube mir, Glaube mir

(Nena – Ich werde dich lieben)